'A Man Who Needs Nothing is Invincible'.

The hardest thing ever is showing that you care.

Admitting that you need things or people ultimately makes you look weak.

The minute you let people know things matter to you, you have made your weaknesses visible, you are no longer invincible.

You are Vulnerable.

No one wants to be vulnerable, to admit something matters immensely to them. Because people can either:

1. Use it against them
2. Take it away from them

And, in both ways, hurt them.

So what do you do if you do care about something, someone? Do you show it?
Do you put yourself on that ridiculously high limb and prepare yourself for the intense plunge into the unknown?

You'll, more often than not find yourself in limbo between wanting to show how much you care and hiding your weakness.

The best choice then? Remain neutral, keep your emotions low-key.

In the ever constant battle between catharsis and avoiding the risk of not having the feelings requited, its best to just test out the waters.

Its their birthday, for example, what do you do? Do you send a heartfelt card and meaningful present or do you send an impersonal ecard to simply let them know you remembered?

Now you have to decide which is worse, them knowing how much you care about them and risk them not feeling the same and they move away from you or them thinking you don't care when you both really do and they move away.... or that they don't care enough either way.. that whether you send something, anything, or nothing, it doesn't make a difference to them.
That they forgot about you.

Is reminding someone that you care and having them not care anymore in return better than keeping your feelings bottled up and risking them caring for you but waiting for a sign from you, a green light, and, when not receiving one, leaving you? Or is finding out that they didn't even care enough about you in the first place to care about how you feel about them anymore the worst?

I don't know.

I care. I care about people, about things, about everything.

I care.

I am vulnerable. I am not invincible, nor do I want to be.

Yet why do I find myself in that limbo sometimes, debating whether to show my emotions or not to, when I never had a second thought about that before?

Why is showing that you care for people, that you need them, so hard?

Well, its obvious. Its the fact that they might not need you, care for you and the painful repercussions that that may cause which ultimately prevents people from doing so. I guess people would rather be hurting alone, then go through self-inflicted pain brought on by revealing their weaknesses.

People want to be invincible.